Unknowing Feeling
You know that feeling? The one that makes your throat dry, and your knees weak? When your hands get shakey and you have trouble finding the right words to say? The one where you can’t speak even if you tried? I have come to dispise that feeling. It has become to be known as the feeling of lies to me. It is the beginning of deception and disloyalty. I don’t trust this feeling and after the last couple incidents I’m not sure if I ever will again.
The unknowing is something I find irritating and complicated. I need, want, desire to know everything. How can I not be? How can I pour my heart out, when I am not sure what will happen next. Or be said next. A heart is something that can be torn outt and ripped to pieces. I’m scared to give my heart out. Even in little pieces. Once it is gone, it is the hardest thing to get back.
